codeandcanvas:

I am looking for ways to switch from having an idea to doing everything in order to fulfill the goal of the idea.

When the idea is from others, hey man, no problem.

But my own ideas?

Wrote down a few lines about this in my morning pages, which are not morning pages at all, and added a footnote there, on page 94:

“ideas travel in groups, or do they multiply by budding?”

I wrote down two ideas, too, which are my goals:

1. I want to draw figuratevily/create fine art
2. I want to design computationally/programmatically
3. I want­­­…

For now, I think that having an idea is about as good as it gets. Spending more time in your own head, thinking about this idea without an action, an execution?

Now that’s just failing to start.

I have just familiarised myself with rock bottom and assured myself of it being solid ground to stand and build upon.

Fingers crossed that writing about this is not thinking about ideas in another medium, huh?

3. I want to be free

Since I have managed to move out of the loop of constant destruction and rebuilding of my own work and progress (the paper bin/the trash can is your enemy, because it destroys your past: past is progress) I can now fall back to this Camp Rock Bottom, instead of being in some sort of crash about to happen.

Let me get the major issue out of the way:

Media consumes my creativity. Lists of names, actors (both kinds), the news–all of this consumes my creativity.

To be blunt: to be bored is the best thing for me.

To be entertained, the worst.

I’ll try the following for the next few months: to treat all of this (social media) as nothing but a newsletter I sporadically update.

Maybe I can break free from being entertained.

Maybe I can free myself into boredom.

Wish me luck. But first, I need to get well. Caught some bug after my latest travels. I am at least in good company: I’ve got myself a few books fitting my recent mood.

Source: My after‑hours blog on Tumblr Code & Canvas